shubassdk | (no subject)

Yes, okay. You guys warned me but it took me this long to actually realise you were right. The Dating.dk-thing? Too much, waaay too much. I've been *seriously* flirting with five different guys, given my number to three and actually talked on the phone thrice with one of them. The Bilka-guy I think is really nice, but he's definitely thinking of me in a different way. Another one texted me from his skiing trip: "I don't have a girlfriend, so I'm giving you a Valentine's kiss :)" - he asked me what I was doing this weekend and I told him I have a lot of partying to do, so he said "then we'll just have to wait for another day". For what, exactly...? And then there's the last guy. The one I've been talking on the phone with. The one I actually think *could* lead somewhere if it weren't for two things: 1/ he lives in Esbjerg which is waaaay too far away => spending too much time (valuable time, at that) going back and forth. 2/ He is already too clingy. He wants to talk every night (I *hate* phones). He keeps saying that Copenhagen is too far away. He started this long ramble about him smoking, but being a considderate smoker and that he eats mints, so it won't be a problem, when...if we...you know... (<= his words). He just...keeps texting me about nothing. We do have the same type of humour and taste in movies, but he *works!* I thought that the whole difference between studying and working was something you could come past, but the way a day is spent is so much different when you work, because you can just let go when you come home - and I can't. He really is sweet, but he's just too much for me. As I told Katherine, I'm not sure I really want a boyfriend that bad - all I want is a snog every once in a while... And I don't need that snog to be in bloody Esbjerg...

So now I need to get out of this crap as fast as I can and I really don't know how to do it. Should I just go to the website and start writing apologetic letters, or something? What about the guys I have on MSN - should I block them? They really are good guys, all of them. And the ones who have my number...?

*sigh*

Sometimes I even surprise myself in how much crap I can get myself into...

Anyway, in other news I've had to oral presentations this week and they went so bloody well...!! I'm always extremely *extremely* nervous before a presentation which leads to me completely forgetting what I wanted to say. A complete blank. But not these two times! I got it! I actually did it without too much mumbling and I could answer questions and stuff!! Also, these courses are so much more fun than I initially thought. Who cares that they bring me 53-hour weeks (yes...), it's fun!!

Tomorrow: Three hours of soil geography, solving problems, Friday bar and possibly a birthday(/party) with Maria aftewards

Saturday: Eating dinner with Kristine and Birgitte and then going to Otto Mønsted Collegium for a party with Asta and Laura - woot! The Chemistry girls together again!

But, no. Really. What do I do about this crappy situation?

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It's difficult to say, honey. If you want them to back off, it's probably best that you tell them that it's all been a bit too much and that you're not ready for anything. That they're wonderful, but you need room for yourself, too.

*hugs*

No, actually I'm more looking for a clean break with them all. Just...no more. I really can't handle more right now than school, friends, family, moving away from home and the possible party every once in a while. I can't fit a boyfriend in Esbjerg into that. At all. And the rest, too...