Oookay. Well, it might not have been with who you think it was. It wasn't Rasmus. It was a guy called Sebastian. I met him in a gay bar (yes, I fucking did) and I had a one-night-stand. Uh-huh. He was a soldier/studying computer-thingies, so that was pretty nice. I went home with him, but I really didn't think anything would happen other than having a bit of fun. But that pretty much evolved quite quickly... But he was so big! And I was a little virgin! It wasn't that good, but it was okay. I didn't really mind I didn't know him, for some reason. It took the tension off with Rasmus. But that was what I told Michael in confidence which I told other people. And the reason I don't trust him any more...
And just to get it out of my system, the Rasmus-deal started with me going home with him as well. Just so you know. Yes, apparently I am a slut...
And, yes, I did very very much see the irony in me picking up *the only* straight man at a gay bar! He was there by him self. For some reason... I went for a walk with Rasmus at some point where we ran into Sebastian and some blonde bimbo. I completely broke down with laughter. I had already told Rasmus about how I lost my virginity, so he knew the story. His reaction? "But he looks so big/muscular!" Said the tiny, thin Rasmus... Aww...
Yeah, I think I'm pretty comfortable with my sexuality. And that's a pretty good feeling, actually :)
Well, that would have been with Rasmus. And yet again I didn't think it would happen, mostly because I'd told him to stay above the naval area, but of course that progressed a lot, too. We went back to his parents' place, because that was the closest and we just...had a lot of fun. Because my only experiense with sex had been so bad I didn't really expect anything remotely close to fireworks, but it was actually really good! He knew I had practically no experience, so he pretty much guided me through the particular parts of it and was really understanding. It was so nice... I think we were in his bed by 2 or 3 am and I didn't leave the room until 12 hours and many many good experiences later ;) And only one hour of sleep. All was good! I hadn't noticed but he had given me an extremely big hickey, so everyone looked at me with a very weird look on their faces. I went to Maria's slumber-party birthday in the evening and actually fell asleep at the national football match, that's how exhausted I was. They kept saying I looked like I had been raped, judging by the hickeys on my neck. And that I glowed...
Yeah, I would like to find someone like that, again... Because I'm not in love with Adrian. He's nice, sure, but that's kinda...it. He's definitely in love with me, but I don't know. And it's not fair to him to let him hang like that, so I have to set a date and if my feelings haven't changed by then I have to break up with him.
Exactly, I'm trying to cool things down a bit. He's already met my parents and stuff... It's just too much and I'm not even sure I'm ready/have the time for a boyfriend. It takes a crap-load of time, I'll have you know!
But if you have any questions in the future about this whole...thing. Just ask me :) Also if you at some point need pointers and tips I will gladly be of service!
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tell me about your first time.
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And just to get it out of my system, the Rasmus-deal started with me going home with him as well. Just so you know. Yes, apparently I am a slut...
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*smiles at you*
I don't see any sluts here. I see a person who is comfortable with her own sexuality. And yay for that!
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And, yes, I did very very much see the irony in me picking up *the only* straight man at a gay bar! He was there by him self. For some reason... I went for a walk with Rasmus at some point where we ran into Sebastian and some blonde bimbo. I completely broke down with laughter. I had already told Rasmus about how I lost my virginity, so he knew the story. His reaction? "But he looks so big/muscular!" Said the tiny, thin Rasmus... Aww...
Yeah, I think I'm pretty comfortable with my sexuality. And that's a pretty good feeling, actually :)
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So I guess my next question should be:
tell me about your second time (which almost became my first question, but I decided to be traditional).
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Well, that would have been with Rasmus. And yet again I didn't think it would happen, mostly because I'd told him to stay above the naval area, but of course that progressed a lot, too. We went back to his parents' place, because that was the closest and we just...had a lot of fun. Because my only experiense with sex had been so bad I didn't really expect anything remotely close to fireworks, but it was actually really good! He knew I had practically no experience, so he pretty much guided me through the particular parts of it and was really understanding. It was so nice... I think we were in his bed by 2 or 3 am and I didn't leave the room until 12 hours and many many good experiences later ;) And only one hour of sleep. All was good! I hadn't noticed but he had given me an extremely big hickey, so everyone looked at me with a very weird look on their faces. I went to Maria's slumber-party birthday in the evening and actually fell asleep at the national football match, that's how exhausted I was. They kept saying I looked like I had been raped, judging by the hickeys on my neck. And that I glowed...
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Also, plz find me someone like that soon. Stop. Am going crazy. Stop.
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Yeah, I would like to find someone like that, again... Because I'm not in love with Adrian. He's nice, sure, but that's kinda...it. He's definitely in love with me, but I don't know. And it's not fair to him to let him hang like that, so I have to set a date and if my feelings haven't changed by then I have to break up with him.
And now I feel like Rasmus, I really do.
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Just pimped this post to Chris. I wonder what her reaction is...
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But if you have any questions in the future about this whole...thing. Just ask me :) Also if you at some point need pointers and tips I will gladly be of service!
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