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This is killing me so much. I have been awake since 8 am and it is now 11 am and they still haven't called. I'm so restless and all I can think about is how great it would be if I got this job and how much it will tear me apart if they give it to someone else.

I really don't know what to do. I'd watch a movie, but I don't think I can concentrate. It's the same with reading.

I have checked horoscopes and they're all positive. I said to myself last night, "if it's sunny tomorrow, you'll get the job". The sun in shining. But now it's been so long, so my hope is seriously fading with every minute.

I have no idea what to do.

ETA: And now it's 1 pm and still no word. Lovely.

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I didn't get it. The woman from yesterday just called. Out of the five they had interviewed, they really like three of us and I was "really high up on the list", but they chose a girl who was exactly like me, but under 18, so they could have her on mondays as well. She is me, but two years younger. I was too old. They were really impressed with my knowledge and my enthusiasm and generally just really liked me a lot, but they needed one on mondays as well, so I couldn't have it. Seriously, I told them in my letter I would do the job for free if they wanted me to, so I don't understand why they didn't ask if I could work on mondays for free. Because I would have!

She told me that they had been so impressed that they will send my application to their sekreteriat and their party head quarters, so if there are any jobs available they'll contact me. Which is kinda good, because it's election year and everyone thinks the election will be this winter or spring, so maybe.

She called at 1:30 pm. After that I had a brief conversation with Rebekka, because I had promised to call her when they called. While we talked I could feel I needed to cry, so I hung up pretty quickly. I started crying and called my dad, who I talked to for 10 minutes while crying. And now I'm crying again.

This was my job, god dammit! Some chick who is me, but younger (!), will now have it for six months! It isn't fair! I don't get the job, because the secretaries don't get enough money for their budget!

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I need cheering up. So much. Although I don't think anything can make this right...

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I have no idea what this means.

Also, could this possibly meant that I am somewhat over being dumped by my #1 place to work? Probably not, but I'm getting there! Also, I am getting back on my political horse. Have made a Parliament date with Maria, so we're going to see the debate live at Christiansborg on Wednesday (woot! Questions for our PM!). As I told my sister, it's so I won't develop a phobia towards politics. Which I probably wouldn't have, anyway, but it's a good excuse for going to watch the debate, right?

Going to bed now, with a book. Going to get up at 8-9 tomorrow (wow! *gasp!*) and send out some applications.

truntles, I love the Kasabian song. Have they made any songs that are somewhat like that one? You know, with the guitars and the absolutely gorgeous drumming?