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shubassdkFuck, I'm so drunk. I just returned from chemistry, though I haven't actually been doing chem th last six hours. We had the usual classes and afterwards we joined our teacher on the lawn and had "a few" beers.It ended up being...I don't actually have a number, but it was a lot. Anyhoo, we had a lot of fun and all was good. My teacher is still the best in the world. I'm sad that I'll never have him again, because he's the most fun teacher and the best teacher I've had in several years!! All in good.
Thomas: I really think I blew my chance today. We sit in rows of four in class and today Thomas and I had only one other person between us, but I didn't talk to him because I really needed to pee in the break. When we went down to the lawn he immidiatly sat down next to the other brunett (whom I've talked about before). After a beer and a lot of sun he went to sit down "in the shaddow", as he put it. Which was nearer me. I should have gone and sit next to him then, but I didn't because my new girlfriends were sitting all around me. So Thomas kinda sat alone for half an hour and I looked at him and he looked at me. And then he went back to sit next to the other girl. And they exchanged phone numbers. And I didn't catch his. And then he left. All through this I was looking at him with the most puppy-dog-eyes-looking look I could (though, actually not on purpose o.O), which I am completely positive he got, so maybe not all is lost.
After most of the people had gone, we were about 10 people left, including the people I was with last Friday. And Lars was there, too. And we flirted like I've never flirted before and broad daylight. And he has a girlfriend. We were talking to a guy called Mikkel about his veeery open fling with one of the other chemistry students and at that point Lars started touching me. We did the same thing (touched my hair, stroked my back) the next two-three hours, but it felt natural of some kind. And actually only half as if he were flirting, so maybe he's just one of those people who like to touch people (though he's only doing it to me...). Oh, and he's the nucest guy I've ever ever ever talked to.
I don't know what to do. It feels as if Thomas is only doing the thing with the other girl to make me jealous (which is working liek woah!) and I'm only doing the thing with Lars to make up for the fact that I don't dare to do anything about the Thomas-thing. I'm confused. I feel like I'm procrastinating the Thomas-thing until he either pushes me up against a wall and kisses me like there's no tomorrow or he loses interest. Whatever comes first.
Thomas: I really think I blew my chance today. We sit in rows of four in class and today Thomas and I had only one other person between us, but I didn't talk to him because I really needed to pee in the break. When we went down to the lawn he immidiatly sat down next to the other brunett (whom I've talked about before). After a beer and a lot of sun he went to sit down "in the shaddow", as he put it. Which was nearer me. I should have gone and sit next to him then, but I didn't because my new girlfriends were sitting all around me. So Thomas kinda sat alone for half an hour and I looked at him and he looked at me. And then he went back to sit next to the other girl. And they exchanged phone numbers. And I didn't catch his. And then he left. All through this I was looking at him with the most puppy-dog-eyes-looking look I could (though, actually not on purpose o.O), which I am completely positive he got, so maybe not all is lost.
After most of the people had gone, we were about 10 people left, including the people I was with last Friday. And Lars was there, too. And we flirted like I've never flirted before and broad daylight. And he has a girlfriend. We were talking to a guy called Mikkel about his veeery open fling with one of the other chemistry students and at that point Lars started touching me. We did the same thing (touched my hair, stroked my back) the next two-three hours, but it felt natural of some kind. And actually only half as if he were flirting, so maybe he's just one of those people who like to touch people (though he's only doing it to me...). Oh, and he's the nucest guy I've ever ever ever talked to.
I don't know what to do. It feels as if Thomas is only doing the thing with the other girl to make me jealous (which is working liek woah!) and I'm only doing the thing with Lars to make up for the fact that I don't dare to do anything about the Thomas-thing. I'm confused. I feel like I'm procrastinating the Thomas-thing until he either pushes me up against a wall and kisses me like there's no tomorrow or he loses interest. Whatever comes first.
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Date: 2005-08-20 05:13 pm (UTC)2. *hugs* It'll work out, you'll see.
3. Ugh. Drunkeness. *thinks about last night*
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Date: 2005-08-20 05:21 pm (UTC)2. Yeah, I hope so! This is getting more messy than I thought!
3. lol! What happened last night?
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Date: 2005-08-20 05:33 pm (UTC)2. It rarely stays clean. I find.
3. Talk to me on msn?
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Date: 2005-08-20 05:35 pm (UTC)2: Yeah, you'd know, wouldn't you? Hitting on a online slash sister ;)
3: Will do!
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Date: 2005-08-20 05:40 pm (UTC)2. :-P
3. Ba-da-bum!
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Date: 2005-08-22 04:11 pm (UTC)*hugs and pets*
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Date: 2005-08-22 09:43 pm (UTC)