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[shubassdk]

I just had what I will call an existesialistic crisis. I cried for 30 mins. without having even the faintest idea why. And I can't really think of it without tears welling up in my eyes...

I guess it all started when I couldn't find my passport (which is still gone) because I needed some ID to go to a bar with some friends. I couldn't find it, so apparently it was the perfect opportunity to cry in front of my (kind of angry) mom. A cry that suddenly was about high school almost being over and my not knowing what I'm gonna do when summer comes.

Then all was silent. I didn't go with my friends, because I couldn't find the passport, so I watched TV. At aboout 11:30 pm I fall asleep and wake up again at 1 am, because my mom has woken me up. Then everything just goes weird. I'm, for some reason, really really mad, and then I find out that there isn't any fruit salat left, so I stomp my foot to the floor and start crying. Yes, I know I'm not 5, but I actually felt like I was. Then the crying takes overhand and I just kinda cries while looking outside. Then I go to a chair and cry, and it is at this point my mom and dad decide to interfeer. My mom tries to calm me down andd my dad tries to buy me off with ice cream.

So now I'm sorta okay. I think. But, as I said to my parents, "if it was more blurry I'd think it was a nightmare". I'm still extremely confused as to what just happened, but somehow I'm glad it did...

Comments

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: I don't know whats going on, or how to help, or even if theres anything to help with so ::hugs::

Take care of yourself, kay?

[shubassdk.livejournal.com]

Yeah...

[yatina76.livejournal.com]

Well, sometimes you just need a good cry. I still can't cry properly after all that Jacob business before Christmas - it's as if I've used all my tears in those days...

[shubassdk.livejournal.com]

Yeah. To quote Gandalf: "I will not tell you 'do not weep', because not all tears are evil"

I thought the Jacob thing was almost alright again...?

[lattara.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart. ::hugs you and strokes your hair::

It's probably the stress and the tiredness and the cinfusement and everything else that's suddenly ganging up on you.

[shubassdk.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think it's that, too. Usually my days are about the same, but now something new happens every day...

[lattara.livejournal.com]

Just.. try to take care of yourself, okay? We are all here if you need a break from everything.

[shubassdk.livejournal.com]

Yeah, thanks :)