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My physics test is tomorrow and I'm so nervous!! I just bloody cried because I'm so nervous and now I look like a tomato in my head!!

I really don't think I can do this. Oh, fuck. Now I'm crying again... Gah!!

It started with me coming down to eat and then my sister said something about the test and I started crying. My mom then said I had to forget about my test, but I really can't do that and I told her that. Then we go outside and I keep crying and my mom get more and more annoyed (you need to know two things: 1/ my sister had her last 9th grade exam today and she was pretty proud about her grade. 2/ some years ago I had eczema all the time and I got so angry with all of the little things, so me and my mom fought ALL the time!). She said some stuff she regrets and I said some stuff I regrets. We went inside and just had a major fight and I cry some more and I end up in my room underneath my blanket, crying. My mom comes up some minutes afterwards and we say our sorries.

Now I can hear them eatinng outside and my eyes hurt like hell...

Fuck the world...