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Uhm, yeah. So after posting about Magnus yesterday I talked to some people and xavantina told me to possibly reconsider. Because I think he might be just a tad weird (in the bad way) and he is *definitely* ready for more relationship than me. I just...he's already acting like we're boyfriend/girlfriend and while I might have flirted back in the beginning, now I'm just feeling weirded out. He's already gotten his aunt to take his cats, for crying out loud!! And we haven't even met each other yet! I've realised that while what I had with Rasmus was a lot less than what I wanted, this is definitely a lot *more* than what I wanted. I've come to the conclusion that I want to flirt and possibly kiss a guy or two, but a long-term, full on, seeing each other every day-relationshion is *not* what I want. Nor is it what I *can*, because while I care about my love life, I still want a good education, so I have to put that first right now (which was *EXACTLY* what Rasmus told *me* and that scares me).

So now I have to write to the poor guy (who just wrote me a text message asking if I wanted to come online and say goodnight o.O), telling him that we've moved waaay too fast and that I just want to be friends. I've known this for 12 hours and I've just kept pushing it off. I have to break up with someone. That is such a weird thought.

I told Kathrine about this today and jesper and Andreas overheard us, so I had to tell them everything about it. They teased me in the most lovable way and ended up reading my profile. Andreas applauded me for getting back on the horse so quickly. They really are so sweet, those two... I think Andreas is possibly fixing me up with a computer-friend of his. Let's just see, shall we?

I'd written in my profile that I weigh 57 kg, to which Andreas said, "Ah, 57 kg? I don't think so...!" To which I had to answer that I'd just weighed myself *today* and I weigh 55 kg. Yes. I haven't weighed this little since...7th grade? It's such a weird thought! And the weirdest thing is that the fat isn't going anywhere, I just lose wight. Maybe my bones are getting slimmer... But after exams this'll be over! I will start working out in a gym nearby. Yes, I will...!

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My crush-tag entries is seriously the funniest thing in the world. I sound so confused and I am so sure through it all that I'm going to end up hurt (I did, but not really in the way I thought). On August 22nd I wrote this about Mads: "But he's so sweet, so if he keeps it up, I might just fall for him." Oh, really, now...!! Cue next two weeks of me being head-over-heels over Mads. On August 24th I write that the following Friday I will have to choose between Mads, Thomas and Lars. In reality I ended up getting my very first kiss from a guy called Magnus.

My life is so fucked up at some points... When I compare my life *now* to how it was a year ago, so much has changed! 12 months ago I was unemployed and I only saw five different friends on a regular basis. Now? Birth control-pills, a chlamydia test, a pregnancy scare, having kissed with 12-15 different guys (according to how you define a kiss), not having *remotely* enough hours in a day, two oral exams coming up in the next five days. During my vacation I am doing a party hat-trick with Maria. She decided it and I couldn't say no.

Now I *really* have to go read glacial morphology for tomorrow...!!

First exam: Monday at 2 pm
Second exam: Wednesday at 1:30 pm