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My life is both very confusing and not confusing at all at the same time right now. I just feel like a lot things are happening in my life, which isn't necessarily a bad thing; it just takes up a lot of my time. One of the things is that I've started Block 2 at University, which means that I have two classes, one of which is a new one (Methods, which is the theory and science of, well, science. The philosophy and logic behind it all). The thing is that we have two classes, but they are both divided into two more classes, which means that we basically have four. And that takes up a lot of time for reading and writing assignments. For tomorrow, for example, I have to read something along the lines of 75 pages. And that's only because one of the Methods classes start tomorrow, so we haven't had anything to read yet. It's not that I'm complaining (because I'm really not! I love reading about the morphology of Danish cities - beats wheat and swine any day), it's just a lot to get used to. Again.

Another things that's changed lately is the whole Rasmus-deal. I've really fallen for this guy and that scares the crap out of me. I was reading on Tuesday, but I kept reading the same page over and over again. I told Laura the next day and she told me that she reads a lot better when her boyfriend is in the next room, just because he's there. And that's exactly the way I feel. Rasmus came over on Sunday and needed to read some Philosophy, so we sat together and read our texts. I'd tried to read that very same text earlier, but couldn't. Suddenly I read a page twice as fast as earlier. Rasmus spent the night both Saturday and Sunday (Saturday we ate cake with my sister and some friends, so now he's really been introduced to my sister!), which meant that when he left on Monday morning we'd spent 36 hours together. And since then I've gotten eight text messages. None today. It's not that I don't think he likes me, because he does. It's just that, how hard can it be to send me a, "How was your day, dear?"-message? I'm sitting here silently going nuts *and* ballistic, drowning my non-existing sorrows in 38 pages of Geographical economics, but it's now working. It would really give me peace of mind if he would just text me, already... Another thing that stresses me is that we really behave like we're boyfriend/girlfriend, but none of us have mentioned that part yet. Yes, I know, I said I'd ask him the next time we saw each other, but I'm a chicken, so I didn't. I think that it's a mixture of not really having it down on paper/written a contract/"you belong to me"-kind of thing plus the fact that he hasn't written me today that's throwing me off right now. And it shouldn't, because he's probably just busy reading 100 pages of Nietzsche or Kant or Descartes or something and he'll most likely write me in an hour or three, but by then I've gone to bed and then we're back to square one. I just hope we can find some day this week to get together...

Oh, well. Basically I really am very very happy right now, but the changes are just making my life a bit more unfamiliar and scary. In a good way, I think.

This was just a way for me to explain to you guys why I'm not online that much these days. I hope you're all well and happy and I love you all!

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Date: 2005-11-17 04:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vampirespider.livejournal.com
¨You're so cute. Seriously.

And ugh, the homework sounds harsh, but I suppose that's part and parcel...

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Date: 2005-11-20 09:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shubassdk.livejournal.com
Aww, I do try ;) He's just making me so happy in a way I didn't think I could be happy. The whole falling in love-thing seemed a bit over rated to me. But now? Not so much.

Yeah, it's *really* harsh. This week is going to be *hell*, I tell ya!

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Date: 2005-11-17 08:52 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] lattara.livejournal.com
Honey, I am very, very happy for you. Go live your life and have fun and snog Rasmus.

and text him, to ask how his day has been. :)

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Date: 2005-11-20 09:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] shubassdk.livejournal.com
I am so so happy that you're happy for me, because otherwise it wouldn't be the same. I want you guys to approve, for some reason o.O Oh, and snogging Rasmus? Has been done. A lot. Plus some other stuff, but you don't wanna hear about that ;)

I did and everything worked out in the end. He slept in my bed (again) Thursday-Friday, so life was good :D

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Date: 2005-11-22 03:52 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] lattara.livejournal.com
Believe me, I approve. :)

but you don't wanna hear about that

... says who? ;)

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