happy thoughts!!

I've texted two of my "guys". I told them I needed to focus on university and they both said they understood it, so I'm happy. Haven't been on Dating.dk since Tuesday.

Friday bar yesterday! Went and had a blast with my group - I love them all so much! Started talking to Adrian, who is a guy I've never really talked to in spite of hanging out with his group of friends a lot (he's friends with Asta and Birgitte, who I'm going to a party with later today). But, yeah, we started talking about football, music, politics, traveling, movies and all sorts of other stuff. We spoke English for half an hour, because he wanted to hear how Danish my accent is (which it isn't - especially when talking to someone who speaks British, then I speak British as well). But, yeah, we spoke for, like, four or five hours. He put his hand on my lower back and touched my legs and I put my legs over his. We were inches apart, but we didn't kiss. He had to catch the last bus home, so he left. The others were so sure we'd kissed, so they all gave me that knowing smile-thing. He texted me later: "Hey! I just wanted to thank you for a wondeful night. I didn't expect such a person behind a face like that =) have a nice night&talk to you soon =) Hugs". So, yeah. Probably something there :) Have texted with him some more today - he said the pleasure had been all his and stuff. So now I have to see what happens on Monday and if all goes well, Fastelavns party on Friday!

When the Fridaybar ended we went to BioBar, where the biologists hang out. I saw Magnus, who I've kissed on two seperate occasions (he was actually my frist, real kiss. Hmm...) and Rasmus' best friend in the footbag-world, Kim. I've never met the guy, but seen pictures of him so I wasn't sure. But he was wearing a TRIO-shirt, who make the best footbags in Denmark, so that kinda helped me figure out it was him... That made me completely sober up and suddenly it wasn't really fun anymore. So I went home... (though it could have been the ULTIMATE revenge to make out with Kim. Muhahaha!!!)

Oh, Adrian just texted me ;)

Yes, okay. You guys warned me but it took me this long to actually realise you were right. The Dating.dk-thing? Too much, waaay too much. I've been *seriously* flirting with five different guys, given my number to three and actually talked on the phone thrice with one of them. The Bilka-guy I think is really nice, but he's definitely thinking of me in a different way. Another one texted me from his skiing trip: "I don't have a girlfriend, so I'm giving you a Valentine's kiss :)" - he asked me what I was doing this weekend and I told him I have a lot of partying to do, so he said "then we'll just have to wait for another day". For what, exactly...? And then there's the last guy. The one I've been talking on the phone with. The one I actually think *could* lead somewhere if it weren't for two things: 1/ he lives in Esbjerg which is waaaay too far away => spending too much time (valuable time, at that) going back and forth. 2/ He is already too clingy. He wants to talk every night (I *hate* phones). He keeps saying that Copenhagen is too far away. He started this long ramble about him smoking, but being a considderate smoker and that he eats mints, so it won't be a problem, when...if we...you know... (<= his words). He just...keeps texting me about nothing. We do have the same type of humour and taste in movies, but he *works!* I thought that the whole difference between studying and working was something you could come past, but the way a day is spent is so much different when you work, because you can just let go when you come home - and I can't. He really is sweet, but he's just too much for me. As I told Katherine, I'm not sure I really want a boyfriend that bad - all I want is a snog every once in a while... And I don't need that snog to be in bloody Esbjerg...

So now I need to get out of this crap as fast as I can and I really don't know how to do it. Should I just go to the website and start writing apologetic letters, or something? What about the guys I have on MSN - should I block them? They really are good guys, all of them. And the ones who have my number...?

*sigh*

Sometimes I even surprise myself in how much crap I can get myself into...

Anyway, in other news I've had to oral presentations this week and they went so bloody well...!! I'm always extremely *extremely* nervous before a presentation which leads to me completely forgetting what I wanted to say. A complete blank. But not these two times! I got it! I actually did it without too much mumbling and I could answer questions and stuff!! Also, these courses are so much more fun than I initially thought. Who cares that they bring me 53-hour weeks (yes...), it's fun!!

Tomorrow: Three hours of soil geography, solving problems, Friday bar and possibly a birthday(/party) with Maria aftewards

Saturday: Eating dinner with Kristine and Birgitte and then going to Otto Mønsted Collegium for a party with Asta and Laura - woot! The Chemistry girls together again!

But, no. Really. What do I do about this crappy situation?

I need some help from you Danish people. Mostly because I can't translate this thing I'm about to post. It's about the Michael-dude. The one in Bilka. He just wrote me this:
Godmorgen min rose...
Sad og havde helt vildt mange tanker omkring hvad jeg skulle skrive til dig, men ingen af dem gav den store mening når først de kom på skrift (i blame the alcohol) men jeg håber du har fået sovet rigtig godt, og muligvis drømt noget sødt. Ville jo gerne sige at du skulle have drømt om mig men den slags ting er man jo desværre ikke selv herre over. Kun de vågne tanker kan man styre, og dem må jeg indrømme har været styret i en temmelig ensrettet retning på det seneste. Retningen mod dig vel at mærke. Har tænkt over mange ord som kunne beskrive hvordan jeg ser dig, men ingen af dem giver dig den retfærdighed som du fortjener. Ved ik hvordan jeg skal sige det, udover at sige at du nok er den sødeste og dejligste pige jeg nogensinde har lært at kende. Du er helt fantastisk. Dont ever change honey!

Tror denne her krop skal puttes i seng snart, den trænger til hvile og til at kunne samle tankerne om noget af det skønneste her i verden. Ja, du gættede rigtigt... Thats you!

Kæmpe kram
Michael






So, yeah. That was pretty much a declaration of love, or something to that extend. And he's told me that his last girlfriend/kiss/sex was two years ago, so he's taking this *very* seriously...! I'm so confused, because while I love getting mails like this (and I get my fair share of them - sometimes it's quite scary) and I think he's very very sweet and nice, I still don't know if I actually *want* a boyfriend or something like that just now. It was so nice to be going out last Saturday, find some guy and make out with him, and then leave. I just don't know what to do, because at this point I've been writing with Michael for over a month and his letters have been more and more like this one => meeting him => dating => boyfriend/girlfriend.

And Maria is out of town, so I can't talk to her. And Kathrine is going to some birthday-thing. I haven't talked to Laura in a week. My sister is nowhere in sight. Kristine is going somewhere. And, yeah, I just sorta needed to air this thing with some other people...

vampirespider - I hope your assignment ended up being brilliant - it looked like it :)

Last night. Yeah, I kissed someone. Just to prove to myself that I could. Muhahah!!

Maria and I went to Moose bar with Nina, where we talked for a few hours for the first time in *years*. It was so nice! Then we went to a club, where we bought some drinks and went to sit down at an empty table, which we soon realised *wasn't* empty, because three guys were actually sitting there. There were three of them and three of us. You do the math ;) Well, Maria and Nina were most agressive, so they claimed first dibs on them, which left me with whomever they hadn't taken. They changed prey all through the night, changing when they had talked to one of the others. Nina went dancing with the blone one called Martin and they started making out. Maria went dancing with the brunette one called Daniel and I *thought* they had kissed, too. I was waiting for Rebekka and was totally bored, because the last one (I'll call him Bahit, because I can't remember his real name) was talking to his ex-girlfriend. We'd earlier talked about football and the mini-Porsche I have in my pencil case and stuff like that. Martin and Bahit had both called me their dream wife (yes, you can score because of football) and Daniel gave me the biggest hug and a kiss on the cheek because I said I liked Peter Møller (who just happened to be his idol). A good song came on and Bahit, Maria and I went dancing. Maria apparently whispered to Bahit that I was just shy, so when Maria left he really made his move. We started dancing closer and closer and suddenly we were kissing, not that it came as a great surprise. He was good-looking, a good dancer and a good kisser. And incredibly nice, too...!! Maria had told methat at the end of this vacation she wanted to see me score someone, because in spite of me having kissed 14 different people in the span of two months, she hadn't been present at any of the occations. She and Nina were dancing next to us, so they saw the whole thing happen. Muhaha...!! Nina left and since Maria realised she wouldn't kiss Daniel she wanted to go, too. So I told Bahit we had to leave, he asked Maria if she couldn't just let me stay (because I am *sure* he thought we'd be going home together), but, no, I am an ice queen and the entire plan of the evening was to kiss someone, so I was happy with the outcome. So Maria and I walked home in the snow.

Today I woke up at 2 pm with a cold. It's been three months since my last flu, so it was about time it came, really... Have been sleeping, watching TV and drinking tea all day.

Tomorrow I start university at 8 am, so I should possibly go to bed soon.

Oh, and that law-student has started calling me Teresa-musen (mus = mouse) and the Bilka-guy has started having dreams about me. Oh, yes, I rule.

I want to comment on the Muhammed-cartoons, but the snot in my brain is stopping me. All I want to say is that I can't understand why Jyllands-Posten can't say they are sorry and I am beginning to fear for my life. We could very well be hit by a suicide bomb any moment now and I live very near the center of Copenhagen.

I'm so bad. Seriously, I must be the biggest flirt on earth.

Over the past month I've been asked out on dates by approximately 20 different guys. I've turned them all down. I've chatted seriously with 5-10 guys, all of whom believe that I'm mostly talking to them. I think I've made three of them get a seriously crush on me or maybe even fall in love. The first one was Magnus, who was just...too much. Then there's Michael, who is really the sweetest guy I've ever talked to. He says the nicest things, but they don't feel forced. He constantly calls me "sweety" and "gorgeous". We're really alike, because he's a geek, too. He appreciates movies and comedy just as much as me. Only catch is that he works in Bilka and wants to start a career in detail. It's not a a catch, per say, it just goes against my fantasy of marrying a science major called Magnus. And now I've added flirt #3 to the list. Rune, who's four years into his Law degree. We have the same kind of humour, the same personalities, are more or less at the same points in our lives. And he just said, "no, now I want you as my girlfriend!"

The problem is that now I'm talking to Rune and I feel that we have more in common than Michael and I, but I still feel like I'm cheating on Michael. But I like 'em both... I've talked more with Michael, maybe that's why...

You know what? All three of them are over 190 cm, which is waaay more than me. Kissing either of them would be a problem.

I really am a bad bad person...

So. Now the mail has been sent to Magnus. I hope he takes it okay and that he doesn't end up hating me...

Ended up reading the entire glacial morphology book, which took me 6 weeks to get through a few months ago. I understood it all, so now *that* part is under control. Now I just need the entire cultural geography-part, which is freaking me out like you wouldn't believe...

Oh, and I think I forgot to tell you that Maria and I sadly *didn't* end up getting the apartment, so now we're at square one, yet again. Woot!

I am *so* looking forward to Wednesday evening...

FC Copenhagen - Schalke tomorrow!!

I am absolutely ready to die now. I have just returned home from university and finalising my 2nd report, the statistics-one. 26 pages, all in all. We've been writing until midnight for three days in a row, so we've *really* worked hard! We've ended up writing a really good report, far better than the others we've looked at, so we're really content. Timo wrote all the philosophical stuff, Laura the statistics, which I co-wrote, but I was mostly the person who did the Excel and the chorographical mapping, so I'll have to spend some time reading up on the other things before the exam. But it's done!! I can upload it if anyone wants to read it ;)

Tomorrow, hand it in at 1 pm and then do powerpoint presentation for the other exam, due at 4 pm. Then possibly relaxing in the night with a visit from Rebekka. The weekend will consist of reading the curriculum for the first report/rehearsing the presentation. Then oral exam on Monday. Reading statistics on Tuesday. And exam on Wednesday or Thursday.

I wanna die, I really do.

Also, the Magnus from Dating.dk-thing? *Seriously* getting more serious by the second. He wrote me this earlier: "I'm looking forward to seeing a real, live angel in the near future :)" I was in the middle of editing our report, so I didn't respond and then he started to do a Teresa, as in really freaking out about me not writing back after writing such a message and therefore he wrote another message an hour later, trying to take it back and saying that he don't want to push things too much and that he'll slow down. I actually forgot to answer *that* message, which made him freak even more and more or less breaking the whole thing off in his third text, saying that he got the picture and asking if we should just be friends. When I got home I got him calmed down on MSN and I think everything's olay now, because he called me a "naughty pirate". Yes. We're both weird. But he's sweet, so everything's good. I really will end up meeting this guy, I just know it. Plus, he's made a deal with his aunt, who'll take over his cats. So I can visit him in his apartment and not getting an allergic break-out, which is both weird and really sweet.

Oh, but the whole Anders-deal is interesting as well, because we were in the same room while writing today and literally *every time someone cracked a joke*, we looked at each other and laughed and kinda winked at each other. A member from his group needed help with the technical part of ArcGIS (map program), so I came and helped them. Anders was 5 cm's away from me and he kept looking at me!! I figured their problem out, walked away and heard Anders say, "she's just really really cool, isn't she?" Me? Grinning like an idiot.

As lattara said, "Oh, yes, everything is going according to plan: it's snowing again and Teresa's love life is complicated." Which really summs it all up, because it actually *is* snowing again!

I just want to thank elwing_white for sending me the little envelope full of goodies. Gay pr0n really must be the best way to get over both a broken heart and exam anxieties, so yay you!! Bel Ami rules so much *goes and watches Greek Holidays*

Statistics are...fun...? *reads some more*

Dating.dk is definitely fun and that scares the crap outa me! I don't want to be one of those people!!

My dad is going to Stanford University in California for the next two weeks and he wants a shopping list of things I want, so could some of you Americans/American-lovers please write stuff he should buy for me? Candies, magazines, CD's, books, stuff like that. Not too expensive, because it's not really a long trip. Pixie Stix, Entertainment Weekly and stuff like that.